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Just Stand up

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything

And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away

Ain't got the patience for the pain

And if you don't believe it look into your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Things get better

Through whatever

If you fall, dust it off, don't let up

Sheryl: Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough \
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

\Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It's like we all have better days

Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don't mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain't gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you

Keyshia: And sayin' you can't go on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Miley: Things get better

Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley: Dust if off, don't let up

LeAnn: Don't you know you

Natasha: Can go

LeAnn: Be your own

Natasha: Miracle

Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

Melissa: adlibs

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Melissa: adlibs

Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

Melissa: adlibs

THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

IF WE ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Mary: You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah

Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

Ensemble: CHORUS

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Ensemble: CHORUS

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

网上淘了一个转让的健身卡，第一次以跑步5分钟歇菜而结束，为了不让大妹笑话，硬是在健身房晃悠了一小时才灰溜溜的回家。好在身体素质恢复的很快，最近两次都达到满意的效果。心情当然大好，身体好起来，人也精神多了。健身房奇奇怪怪的人很多，有些蛮搞笑的，好运的话还能碰上一两个养眼的帅哥。看来这个选择相当正确，真的不能放任自己就这样消沉下去。终于理解阿三同学的话，把自己放空，好好的休息。通过努力，也慢慢走出阴影。不好的回忆虽然有时还会出现在脑海里，但是还是会克制自己尽量少想。深呼吸很重要，压力大的时候，被惹到得时候，控制自己的情绪，做着深呼吸，火大的情绪也会得到缓解。生气是女人的天敌，尤其是在这个逐渐衰老的年龄简直就是大忌，如何学会享受生活，对自己好才是王道。下周找机会去吃春饼，吃春饼的记忆还停留在老爸带我去美术馆附近的小餐馆吃，已经很多年都没有吃春饼了。。

最后，谢谢一直在身边支持和给与鼓励的家人，朋友们还有六十童鞋。

每个人都认为辞掉工作是件幸福的事情，可以去做自己想做的事情，可以想几点起几点起。我甚至开始害怕睡觉，因为还会醒来，面对同样低迷的一天。我不需要休息，或者我需要去旅游，我需要去健身。但是我又需要去找新的工作，我不知道什么时候可以找到新的工作，所以我不知道可以办个多久的健身卡。这些天一直萎靡不振的过着，和家庭妇女一样每天盼着6点到9点的电视剧，那是每天值得期待的事情。我不愿意和大家说我不好，不敢和关心我的人说我不好。我在努力装着快乐，打电话故意提高几个分贝听起来还是轻松的。每当绝望的时候，喜欢抱着八喜看着它纯真的眼神，这样会好过一点。越是这样越不希望可以成为别人的负担和累赘。没有人有义务随时关注你。刚才和老余聊天，也许有相同境遇的才会博得理解。我也终于找到一个词可以形容我的状态--逃避。当我肯定这是绝好的词来形容我的同时，我不禁楞了几秒。一直以来我相信我的意志是坚定的，无论遇到任何难过去的坎，我都清楚的知道发生了什么事情，我需要去怎么做克服。但是当我完全没有意识到发生什么的时候，我竟然潜意识的去逃避现实。至少，失恋会让人觉得痛，背叛会恨，但我却这样平静，接着，就选择了逃避现实。阿三说我该休息。但是，昨天我拎着无比沉重的电脑包，在下班高峰拥挤的地铁里站了10多站，在寒冷的天气为了省钱等20分钟公车的时候，我没有抱怨，我总觉得我不怕吃苦，我不需要休息。但是我仍然混沌的过着，没有计划，更没有长远的规划，就是这样逃避着。我唯一知道我被打败了，我需要振作。但是我振作不起来，我也不知道被什么打败了。每天做梦都会梦到很多开心的事情，我好像是在等着有那么一个人可以拯救你，可以有一双包围着阳光的手伸过来，把我拽出来，不要在沉浸在自己的世界，任凭自己继续的消沉。我继续逃避着可以逃避的事情，我继续逼着自己去做无法逃避的事情，但无法投入。我不想和人交流，我不想听到“为什么会辞职”“有什么打算”这些千篇一律又毫无意义的问题，我不想在深夜开开msn，就会有人问我该不该辞职该不该换工作。我开始后悔让这一系列变化发生在可恶的冬天，寒冷又缺少阳光的冬天，往往憋的透不过气的时候才明白作茧自缚的滋味。姑且先把一切责任都丢给这讨厌的冬天吧。